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So tuesday i beat Armon in tennis Yays for me! nothing really excxiting happened this week. i hate being bored and stuck at home. Too bad im lazy and dont have the energy to get my license/permit but hey i get good grades and thats what matters. Rite now i am at Caitys house and Jolene and Erika just left. My contacts are bugging the shit out of me but i look sexay. We went to jimbos and i had Some EEggss it was great. WE stalked the hot jimbo boy and then went to starbucks. After that we watched what Women want and jolene, caity, and erika wouldnt shut up about how they want to go to prom. i want to go but then i dont. Well anyways caity is bugging me so we are going to go make "music". Peace yo
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[04 Mar 2004|04:40pm] |
Suicidal Tendencies - Institutionalized
Sometimes I try to do things, and it just doesn't work out
the way i want it to
and I get real frustrated, and like, I try hard to do it and
I take my time
and it just doesn't work out the way I want it to, it's like I
concentrate on it
real hard, and it just doesn't work out, and everything I
do and everything I try
it never turns out, it's like I need time to figure these
things out, there's always someone
there going, hey mike, you know, we been noticing
you've been having alot of problems
lately, you know, maybe get away, and like, maybe you
should talk about it,
you'd feel alot better, I go no, it's ok, you know, I'll
figure it out,
just leave me alone I'll figure it out, you know, I'll just
work it out myself, and they go, well
you know, if you wanna talk about it I'll be here you
know, and you'll probably feel alot
better if you talk about it, so why don't you talk about it,
I go, no, I don't want to, I'm ok,
I'll figure it out myself, but they just keep bugging me
and they just keep bugging me,
and it builds up inside,
So you're gonna be institutionalized
You'll come out brainwashed with bloodshot eyes
You won't have any say
They'll brainwash you until you see their way
I'm not crazy - institutionalized
You're the one who's crazy - institutionalized
You're driving me crazy - institutionalized
They stuck me in an institution
Said it was the only solution
To give me the needed professional help
To protect me from the enemy, myself
I was in my room and I was like just staring at the wall
thinking about everything
but then again I was thinking about nothing, and then my
mom comes in and I didn't even
know she was there and she calls my name and I didn't
hear her and then she started
screaming, MIKE, MIKE, and I go what, what's the matter,
and she goes what's the matter
with you?
I go there's nothing wrong mom, and she goes don't give
me that, you're on drugs, I go no
mom, I'm not on drugs, I'm ok, I'm just thinking, why
don't you get me a Pepsi? She goes,
no, you're on drugs, I go mom, I'm okay, I'm just
thinking, she goes no, you're not thinking,
you're on drugs, normal people don't act that way. I go
mom, just get me a Pepsi please, all I
want is a Pepsi, and she wouldn't give it to me, all I
wanted was a Pepsi, just one Pepsi, and
she wouldn't give it to me, just a Pepsi.
They give you a white shirt with long sleeves
Tied around you're back, you're treated like thieves
Drug you up because they're lazy
It's too much work to help a crazy
I'm not crazy - institutionalized
You're the one who's crazy - institutionalized
You're driving me crazy - institutionalized
They stuck me in an institution
Said it was the only solution
To give me the needed professional help
To protect me from the enemy, myself
I was sitting in my room and my mom and my dad came
in and they pulled up a chair and they
sat down, they go, mike, we need to talk to you, I go
okay, what's the matter? They go me
and your mom, we been noticing lately you've been
having alot of problems, and you've been
going out for no reason, and we're afraid that you're
going to hurt somebody, and we're afraid
you're gonna hurt yourself, so we decided that it would
be in your best interest if we put you
somewhere where you could get the help that you need,
and I go, wait, what are you talking
about, we decided? my best interest? How do you know
what MY best interest is? How can
you say what MY best interest is? What are you trying to
say? That I'm crazy? When I went
to your schools, I went to your churches, I went to your
institutional learning facilities. So
how can you say I'm crazy?
They say they're gonna fix my brain
Alleviate my suffering and my pain
But by the time they fix my head
Mentally I'll be dead
I'm not crazy - institutionalized
You're the one who's crazy - institutionalized
You're driving me crazy - institutionalized
They stuck me in an institution
Said it was the only solution
To give me the needed professional help
To protect me from the enemy, myself
It doesn't matter, I'll probably get hit by a car anyway.
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Hey girlies and Boysies
Thanks to jolene I got a spiffy new Icon... I look scared don't I!!! lol
Maybe its because I'm blind without my glasses on? nah jk I'm not that blind.
Well today I'm studying for the exam in piano I have at around 1 pm.
My parents are yelling about my brother once again.. My mom thinks its my dads fault that he's a screw up, when I think its my brothers fault and so does my dad.
Whatever.
well.. I must go back to studying, I just wanted to update because I havent in a year OR SO.
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[22 Feb 2004|05:51pm] |
ugh.. erikas making me update
Yesterday, saturday, I went to Hillcrest with Erika, Jolene, and Mike. It was fun. We ate at a place where I didnt understand anything the people were saying " Wouldju lik beokjd or lakdjfn?"
"what?" I would reply " What kind of meat do you want lana" "oh...... beef" "Shelke, or sdlkfdn" what?? if it wasnt for her pointing, i would have just left lol.
Erikas friend Mike pointed out the fact that I'm kinda... anal.. yes its my name backwards but its true lol. When Erika Jolene and Mike would be cracking up...... I'd be just sitting them watching them laugh.
okay.. thats about it.. lol
back to school tomorrow blehhhh
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I'm sitting here with Caity Munson and we're listening to the beautiful Duncan Sheik. :). We just came back from Carmel Mountain Ranch Plaza. We hung out with Edgar, John Boone, and Willie. We saw Erika.. She came for a little with Jolene and then they ditched us. Bastards. We ate at In N Out and when Erika called, John, Willie, and Edgar made noises in the phone. It was overly exciting. Then, we went to some stores.. but after a little while they ran away from us... so .. we had nothing else to do but run after them. Then after Willie screams "SHIT" for the 5th time they stopped. And then soon after we parted with our high fives. Yes that was my exciting day.
Ta-Ta for NOW
love always,
THE LANA
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[15 Feb 2004|06:29pm] |
Lana, since you won't update your journal, I WILL.
And there you go, her live journal is updated.
the lana is awesome!
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GOOD MORNING!
I awake to find d the devil,sitting near my bed. We have a conversation .........he says
Good Morning Mr. Cut-throat. These are most exciting times. We are surrounded by fools and crooks, strangers that give us dirty looks, so many different people to despise.
it's tearing you apart/ you haven't got the heart. I dont mean to complain, but it seems a little strange
Good morning Mr. Turncoat! Well done! you've been watching the so-called news ( and now you see it) That no news is good news. We dont want to confused The popular pursuit of absolue truth. and who has the time for such remote endeavors.
You want to disappear. How did you end up here? I don't mean to complain but it seems a little strange
Take me to your leader. I sure could use a laugh. (I hear) he's made a new birdfeeder and sleeps in a birdbath. Who needs to join the circus come on, just look around. We are surrounded by a bunch of fucking clowns!
they sing la la la la la la la la la la la la la la la....... they all sing la la la la la la la la la la la ... we all sing la la la la la la la la la la la la .. everybody sings la la la la la la la
It's tearing you apart/ you havent got the heart. You sit there and complain, it seems a little late
good morning mr. Misanthrope. I sure do hope you remember our terms.
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Helllo... It's saturday at 8:21 right now. I went to bed at 7:30 pm last night because my eye hurt like a freakin.... turd? ?I dunno what word to use in there. Anyway, I was talking to Matt and Jeff from tennis, they asked me a question, I dont perticularly remember what they asked.. But then I lifted woodchip ( I was playing with some in my hand) and swipped my eye because it was itching.. Although i did not use the side the woodchips were on I still got some in my eye.. and i guess i scratched my eye also. SO it hurt like a mofo and wouldnt go away.
how much wood, would a wood-chuck chuck, if a wood-chuck would chuck wood.
As much wood, as a wood-chuck would if a wood-chuck would chuck wood!!!
Tonight I'm gonna be heading out to my grandmothers house. My grandmother neglects us. She complains that she doesnt see us as much as my aunt (this is true). But yet she makes no effort of coming over, so what is there to complain about? *SHRUG*
We're gonna walk in seaport village:) yay, I havent been on a family night out of walking somewhere pretty in a while.
over and out captain.
true story.
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That.. right there.. entertained me greatly. And I mean greatly
Deep thought...
So I found out my moms Aunt died today. I didn't know her, but it got me thinking. It's kind of wierd to think about death because what if there wasn't anything after it? What if it's just like a light bulb that goes dead... Lives and brings light to the world and then just.. Flickers and wears off... And its wierd to think that if there is nothing after life, that it's just done. I mean, no thoughts, or sights just dark. But its not dark because you're not really there.. See i can't grasp it. :\ Oh well. I guess no one really knows and we'll have to hope for the best. That we're sent to heaven with all our friends and family :]
I read Willie's story. Willie it was good stuff! Chapter one at least, all I've read. :]
Today was a lonely day you could say. It was long and I had nothing to do. Valentines day is close. Another day to spend by myself I suppose :P.. Can't expect much more from picky lil shy Lana.
I haven't been having dreams that I can remember. It's not exciting. I love thinking about dreams I have trying to think what they mean. I'm a little nerd like that.
alright, time to sign off and get to bed. I'm tired. goodnight my loves.
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Report cards came out today, and this time, I wont hide it from my parents. Lol. After school today, since we got out at 12:05, Erika, Jolene, Caity, and I head out for Islands.
It was a rainy day, unlike any other we have seen in the past couple of years. The roads were filled with vagarant puddles of water. We stepped out of the comforting vehicle and into the large world that stood infront of us. Prepared to face the large community of the world unknown we step in a place called.. "ISLANDS".. In this strange place we encountered many different beings: The tall, the short, the weak, the strong, the understood, the well-known. They were all at ease and sitting around strange apparatus we've come to know to be named "tables". After what seemed like 10 maybe 15 long minutes we followed the strange man to our " tables." On these tables sat strange devices. One of which was a sheet of hard thin paper like material named A Menu. This was a sort of directory of goods that this place produces. I skimmed the list and the only item I found to be of any interest was called Maui Burger. My friends ordered what seemed to be more preferable for themselves. I did not ask any questions. We sat waiting for these items to be recieved and sent to us. Once I saw the assistant carry the items toward us, my heart skipped a beat. I was excited to what was approaching us. The items were set. I saw my fellow companions begin to take bits of these items, so i proceeded and had done what I've seen. When I took a bite of my item, I was sent to pure bliss.
The End.
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my background is so hot. i can't take it.
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you are an emo pussy. stop whining about how your
girlfriend dumped you and get the fuck over it.
go cry. stop feeling sorry for yourself, cause
everyone is sick of hear it you dumb asshole.
what kind of asshole scene kid are you?
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I DONT HAVE A GIRLFRIEND DAMN IT AND I NEVER HAVE AND I NEVER WILL!!!
psh, stupid tests saying im emo..*rolling eyes*
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[28 Jan 2004|08:44pm] |
JAMIE IS MY SEXY MAN.
;o)
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awwww look how cute my doggy is
you know whats funny, scroll down all the way until you see the entry with the guessingness of my gender, I posted a new one , with my same name, yet they are different percentages,, I guess I'm borth male and female
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You are one of the few out there whose wings are
truly ANGELIC. Selfless, powerful, and
divine, you are one blessed with a certain
cosmic grace. You are unequalled in
peacefulness, love, and beauty. As a Being of
Light your wings are massive and a soft white
or silver. Countless feathers grace them and
radiate the light within you for all the world
to see. You are a defender, protector, and
caretaker. Comforter of the weak and forgiver
of the wrong, chances are you are taken
advantage of once in awhile, maybe quite often.
But your innocence and wisdom sees the good in
everyone and so this mistreatment does not make
you colder. Merciful to the extreme, you will
try to help misguided souls find themselves and
peace. However not all Angelics allow
themselves to be gotten the better of - the
Seraphim for example will be driven to fighting
for the sake of Justice and protection of those
less powerful. Congratulations - and don't ever
change - the world needs more people like you.
*~*~*Claim Your Wings - Pics and Long Answers*~*~*
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yo yo! So today.. I enjoyed the finals very much porque they were easy! *excitment*
Hung and I have been planning to go to the zoo so we MIGHT be going to the zoo on monday .. WHO WANTS TO GO?!?!
AND Kevin owes me In N Out so I might do that on monday too.. WEE FREE BURGERS! who wants to join;)( free burgers not included)
Tonight im suppose to be studying for a class I have no clue what I have in. Which is impossible because everytime I start to study I start thinking " what if I have a B- in the class.. I better get cracking.. and then I start thinking " I've turned in so much extra credit I couldnt have a B- .. What if I have an A I dont need to study so much.. IT MESSES WITH THE HEAD! SERIOUSLY!
Coheed and Cambria on Saturday.. So excited. *jumps up and down* .. (the cool thing about typing.. is that see I wouldnt actually jump up and down if I told you I was excited about going to Coheed and Cambria.. Since we all know how enthusiastic I am.. I might force out a smile or something)
My lovely Jamie wanted me to include him in my entries... this is for you!!! hehe;) come visit soon!
Love ya all,
Lana
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[17 Jan 2004|12:33pm] |
Laura the evil pirate has sent me these pictures.... I have no words.. just the drool that leaks from my mouth.. lol
On another note.. Finals are next week. I shall start studying soon.
My dad gave me a bit too much wine yesterday... Lana was a lil buzzed.. even tho no one was around me, I was enough to entertain myself.. I almost fell forward when i was getting up.... Good times.. but never again lol
Coheed and Cambria next saturday. Yes im excited. Jolene and Erika are coming with Caity and I .. Hopefully Jolena and Erika wont laugh the whole show because for a reason or two they laugh at my coheed and cambria. The find his voice funny. I think its a nice voice and he's very talented. and so does caity.
Erika keeps bugging me about a boy .. lets call him larry (not his name) She thinks i like him. Erika.. I dont like larry.. He's a great guy, but no. As much as your try to stab words and frases in my head. " LANA THINK ABOUT IT . LANA DONT YOU WANT A BOYFRIEND" It wont go through.. whatever u say! k? lol
this foxy man has my vote on best voice in the world.. His name is Duncan Sheik. Kevin introduced me to his pretty song days go by... Duncan will you marry me? lol
alright tis all
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